Thoughts that infest like pest .

Ever felt like you did not ever even succeed in knowing one tenth of yourself , I am not talking about feeling psychotic or hallucinated ,  it’s a different feeling .Sometimes when  YOU look at yourself from outside the frame rather  then picture yourself from the frame like you always do .
To make the matter worse a second person or rather someone else whom you have probably known for only a few months makes you push and have a different picture about yourself altogether. Should you be thankful well that it definitely depends on what picture they showed you of yourself. Now I don’t want to be sounding like a person who just lost her parameter of normalcy but I just had a day where things came to me from a different perspective and receiving this was just not pleasant for me at least. So how is it receiving your personality character from someone who has been observing you > not pleasant to a bit , since when did stark truth hit me so hard I wonder .I was pretty certain about how I was and how I portrayed about myself till today when a friend tells me  you have turning mood swings and really intense ones  , do I seriously .. I just tend to succumb to silence for awhile perhaps not even to think about anything maybe that does look a little retarded to some but that’s the way I am comforted.I don’t really have days when I come home to reflect and write about what happened but today it honestly stirred me not in a way when someone shoots  you with something sardonic but just honest truth about yourself  well, that is not usually perceived very optimistically by everyone.  Well, what I am trying to say is we seriously need to have occasions like this when we get an idea about ourselves from someone else and most importantly not to avoid it all what we really need to do is learn to categories their importance and definitely leave the crap out of it and from what we get and  we should be able to try and learn more about our self from this  because


sometime what others see of you is more than what you think of yourself to be.Give sometime of your day to reflect upon your action, they will definitely give you a picture of the direction your heading for and most importantly don’t lose yourself so much in the effort of trying to be perfect ,keep that little spark of madness in you…always , tou we are given a little of it , but to lose that would be grave pity .